Rooted in greater unconditional love for myself and others I replace ineffective beliefs, fears and illusions and I am...
- Conscious of, aware of my connection to Source, God, Spirit, all creation.
- Trusting my inner knowing, intuitions
- Expressing myself with authenticity, speaking my truth
- Empowered by embracing my uniqueness, individuality, gifts as well as quirks, challenges, lessons
- Expressing my inspirations, passions and senses with creativity and joy
- Grounded in peace and trusting myself in all experiences
So, over the course of this journey of self-ascension, I have been dedicated to raising my vibration or energy towards the heart. I have had limitless energy healing sessions by the best and have have become a Master healer myself. I have studied, been attuned and initiated. I have learned meditations and facilitate meditation groups. I have learned and taught many spiritual practices. I have gone vegetarian, juiced, chanted and done some yoga. Have had readings, given readings. Done astrology and numerology readings and given some astrology and numerology readings. I have had past life regressions and multiple shamanic healings. I have participated in sacred fires, full moon/new moon ceremonies with drumming and dancing. I have worn crystals and essential oils, white, black and all the colors of the rainbow. I have travelled to sacred sites and vortices.
And, as with any journey, I have had peak and valley moments. I am increasingly struck by the tenacity of fear, scarcity and patriarchal belief systems of disempowerment, judgement doubt and limitations. The more I become aware of "enlightened" or conscious living, living in the now, mindfulness, spiritual practices, the more I realize the degree of resistance so deeply ingrained in my psyche, DNA, meridians. There is a increasing differential between my day to day living and my understanding of living from the heart. It is dis-heartening...
I am weary. I am unsure I have the ability to overcome so many fearful limited beliefs. I find I am distracting myself from self-ascension practices in my discouragement only giving rise to self judgement even if I know better. I am a smart woman, how can I be so discouraged...???
When my "teacher" is in the area, I "wake up", shape up and show up. I am inspired by how much lighter I feel, easier it is to embrace self-ascension living, to mingle the two worlds. And yet, day to day seems to take over and I go to sleep feeling overwhelmed, ineffective and weary. I start the day doubtful instead of embracing the new opportunity to allow all experience to guide me to the place in need of forgiveness, relief, release, clearing, love, acceptance, embrace... What a gift, right?
